Oh yes. Maybe I am becoming so much socially awkward than I’ve ever been before. Maybe I didn’t know anymore how to act in the socially acceptable way of socializing to my friends. What the eff? I am once again accused of being so quiet and that seems to be a bad thing.
For the nth time, my friends noticed I was not talking that much. What am I supposed to do? I’ve been talking, like really talking. I was replying to the conversations. I was asking questions. I was telling stories about myself. Heck, I even though I’ve made a few funny jokes. What do they want to hear?
Instances like this bother me. As far as I’m concerned, I’m still me. I am still the Jenny that I used to be, just a bit better I think. Maybe, they don’t know me anymore. Maybe they forgot how I really was.
Oh wait. Maybe they’re talking so much about themselves, then, when they finally decided to give me their full attention, I panicked. Yeah. I don’t feel so comfortable when everyone’s attention is on me. I begin to stutter. I hate it when that happens.
Don’t get me wrong I love my friends but I am mostly irritated when people point out that I am quiet. There’s nothing wrong with it. I really wish people would become sensitive to what others feel. Sometimes, it’s better to shut up than point it out.