What I didn’t regret

You know those moments you think of all the things you did in the past and play it over and over inside your head?

That’s actually a very common scenario to me every night when I get to my bed and reflect on my life. I realized that there’s nothing much that I regret in my life. After all, it’s what I wanted. It was my decision to do that. So, it’s pretty useless for me to regret on stuff. Instead of focusing on regrets, I think I should focus on things I didn’t regret.

I remembered that moment I turned my back on nursing. It was one of the hardest decisions I’ve made in my life. I thought that I was such a coward from not taking that opportunity but I guess it’s good that I did it. Why? Because I realized I’m not yet ready. I know that the world won’t wait for me to get ready but in a job like nurses do..It’s really scary because the patients’ lives are in my hands and I can’t afford to make big mistakes. Yes I was scared and I know that it’s normal. I didn’t choose to face my fear though instead I ran away. Up to this day, I am still thankful though, that I did that. It opened up other opportunities and experiences for me.

Since quitting temporarily from my profession, I decided to pursue my love for writing. I enjoyed my job as a freelance article writer. It worked on me. I was able to do writing for living for 2 years already. I think it brought me lots of lessons. I was actually proud of myself because I was got one of my dream jobs.

For now, I think I am in the crossroads of my life. I don’t know if I should pursue my career but I miss working in the hospital and it’s so hard to get a working experience here in my country. Is it normal that I don’t know what I want to do with my life? I feel like going crazy sometimes. I need some time to find myself (lol).

My point here is that I do not think of my past mistakes as  regrets but rather lessons. I always believe that there are reasons behind the things that happen to our lives. Though the reasons may not still be clear for me, I believe that by that I will be guided on what I should do with my life.

Hopefully, I’ll figure out what I’ll do with my life. It’s totally confusing. ­čśŤ


Note to Self # 3: One step at a time

You might get confused with what’s happening to your life. It’s totally fine. There are so many things that can get you so indecisive. That’s why it’s hard to make decisions. Every move made is vital because it will be a foundation of your future. In your thoughts, you may think, “Don’t you dare mess this up.” Guess what? Don’t over-think like you always did. What matters is that you don’t rush into things. Take one step at a time. Consider your feelings. Ask yourself if you will be really happy if you do this. After that, keep a positive mindset. That’s the only way you’ll have your success.



Note to Self #2: Fall in love with yourself

Fall in love with yourself

You have been through a lot. There may be times when you think that you’re not enough (not pretty enough, not smart enough not funny enough, not talented enough, not capable enough). Whatever it is, stop thinking that you are not enough because you are actually good enough. It may not make that much sense but forget all the frustrations. Learn to love yourself. Tell yourself that you are fine with what you have. The only thing that is lacking is accepting your strengths and weaknesses. You would not be you today if you don’t have those. Don’t even compare yourself with others. There are actually people who love you for who you are. If they fell in love with who you are, then, you certainly can as well.


Note to Self #1: Stop Obsessing

Stop Obsessing

Let go of your worries. Do not obsess over things you don’t have control of. Most of the time, it will help you to be just carefree. Go easy on yourself. Let things happen and just enjoy the moment. If something bad happens, face it with a smile. Chant your positive mantra. ┬áLet go of doubts. Start trusting yourself and believe that things will be okay.