2013 Wrap up

It’s another year that has finished. Like they say, “Time flies by”. We are again in the point when we reminisce and reflect about the year that has passed.

To be honest, I must say that this year is a roller coaster ride though most of it was on plateau. It’s not like the negative kind of plateau but rather boring. I stayed in my comfort zone and did not do anything to be out of it. The plateau would refer to me choosing the easier way in which I don’t have to make an effort. Actually, I don’t regret anything that I have decided. In fact, I am really happy to have made those decisions. I’ve learned my lessons.

2013 is not an easy year though it’s mostly spent in plateau. In the beginning of the year, I get to practice my career as a nurse. It was such a happy moment for me. I got to learn and do what I was taught in nursing school. I realized that it’s indeed a noble profession to be in. Compassion and dedication are needed to pursue it. I’ve come across different people.. and faced with unexpected experiences. One of which was seeing a patient deteriorating and dying before my eyes. I felt like I had to detach from that moment..to prevent from crying because I need to be strong. It was a bit similar to the movies. In the mid-April, I finished my nursing training. I was successful and yet I felt like I shouldn’t take the opportunity of working in the hospital setting.

Since then, my father and I had some sort of disagreement with regards to my career, a definite down in my roller coaster ride. He said that I should have pursued it. I said I would not be happy working there. In the end, I stood by my decision. I followed my heart. It was a rough decision between practicality and happiness. Until now, I don’t know what to make out of it. Probably, I just chickened out because I was scared of failure. Or probably, there is something behind the turn of events that somehow makes it right.

By June, my grandmother passed away. She was really an angel in my life. She has always stood by my side, my defender in many ways. Like I said before, I’m just happy that my she and my grandfather are now together in heaven, a bit relieved that she didn’t need to feel pain anymore.

In September, I got freelance writing jobs. That’s when I thought that maybe I am meant to be a writer. I’m happy to have discovered this side of me. I have always loved writing because of my love for reading. Anyway, even if I am enjoying the perks of the job, I still miss dealing with patients and helping them. I miss nursing..but I guess it’s really true that you don’t know what you’re missing until it’s gone. I let the opportunity pass and here I am feeling slightly sorry about it but not so sorry about it (lol seriously I have a bad case of ambivalence).

Right now, what can I say..Yes I am thankful for everything that has happened. I’m still figuring this out but eventually things will unfold for me. I’ve pointed out before that I have always believed that all things happen for a reason.

Like I said, my year has been on a plateau but still a roller coaster ride. I remembered a character in John Green’s novel, “The Fault in Our Stars”. It’s Augustus Waters and he said there that he is on a roller coaster that only goes up. I want my life to be like that. A roller coaster that only goes up. A life that is so colorful because I learned to take calculated risks and be brave. That’s what I am going to do in 2014. Take risks, believe in what I can do.. and where fate takes me.


It’s the most wonderful time of the year

Hello everyone! I’d just like to greet everyone Merry Christmas! I wish the best for all of you and your families. We are indeed blessed for all the stuffs we got to receive this year.

For this year, I couldn’t be more thankful for having my loved ones safe and healthy. That alone is a priceless gift. Of course, I have a long long list of Christmas Wish List but I’m afraid, no one’s going Santa for me. Still, I have the child inside of me who believes in the spirit of Christmas. It’s actually great that we have this holiday every year. For me, it’s like one of the days in the whole year we hope for magic to happen. That’s what it’s like every year for me.

Anyway, that’s all I got to say now. Six days ago and 2013 will be over. Wow. Time really flies fast. I’m just getting excited for what’s in store for me in the coming years.

Once again, Merry Christmas y’all!


Day 1 of 365

It’s New Year here in Manila. I’d like to say Happy New Year too to everybody who will be reading this post of mine. Best of luck to us for this year!

I am feeling it, all the positive vibes for 2013. I just feel that something bigger and better is in store for me this year. I have this sense of excitement every time I think of the possibilities.

I came to realize how I appreciate the simplicity of how we spent the New Year’s Eve. I am with my family, only my father is missing since he is overseas, working. We are lucky to have these many blessings given to us. I have them with me. I only wish my father to be with us though.

Actually, before this day, I was suggesting we go outside to the parks and celebrate our new year there with other bunch of people, but they’re such killjoys so I gave up with my plans. Anyway, we just kind of made noises at home. We had trumpets and we had our stereo on full blast.

I am such a fan of fireworks. That’s a thing I am very certain of when it comes to new year celebrations. Well, it turned out that there is a fireworks display nearby our place. Me, my mum, and my brothers went out to the balcony to watch the fireworks. I tell you, I feel like the child in me has been awakened. I was like: OMG! That’s so amazing! Oh God! Oh God! I can’t stop being awed by the fireworks. It was so close to where we were standing from our balcony. We even saw a lantern at the sky. My eyes were glued to that thing. I thought it some kind of shooting star coming down to us. Well, I was a bit of exaggerated with that one. When the fire/light in that lantern went out, I was all WOW with it.

We did our usual traditions of jumping up and down when the clock strike 12 and we shook our hands with coins inside it for prosperity or something. There’s nothing bad with doing those. It might bring more luck and I’m not saying no to that.

Then, after we’ve done that, we ate and drank our hearts out. Well, for me, not so much since I am still writing this post.

I just really really hope that this year will be so amazing. I have a lot of things to be grateful already even if it is just the 1st day of 2013. Good Vibes at the start of the year. And I’m starting my year with writing, so I’m glad I’m making a difference.

By the way, I will try my best to write every day for 2013. 🙂


Dear 2012

You have been such a heck of a roller coaster ride. I’ve been into lots of ups and down. I’m thankful that I’m still sane after all of those things you’ve thrown my way. It was a year of mostly good memories though.

This year, I’ve been faced with lots of challenges and I’m glad that I was strong enough to get through that. There were moments I felt like giving up but then sudden  random inspirations came into my head. Then, I get right back on track.

I’ve achieved a lot and I must give myself a shoulder pat for all of that. I’ve worked hard and all of those paid off. I got my College Degree, I officially became an RN, and I’m going to be starting my training hopefully this coming January.

It’s been a really crazy year. I met new people and I’ve always said that I wanted to make new friends. Although there are new people who entered my life, my old friends made me feel like they aren’t going anywhere. I’ve been in “get-togethers” with them and it’s really amazing to just catch up with our lives.

This year, I also realized that I don’t have to be throwing tantrums whenever I go to family gatherings. It was awesome to be spending some time with them. I never knew until now that I missed  a  lot because I was keeping myself from being close to them. Now, I am able to talk to them, like really talk. I laughed with them and those are memories that I’d like to keep forever.

Also, I will not forget about the fact that I survived the Mayan Apocalypse. I’m still alive and I’m looking forward to the future. I am pretty positive that 2013 will be better and grander than what my 2012 has been. I’m looking forward to the journey that I am about to start. I’ve got loads of goals to achieve next year and hopefully I’ll get to cross off things out of my bucket list.

A new year, a new mindset. I’m so excited for 2013!


An idea I’ve got for 2013

I saw this post on Tumblr and I thought this will be a good thing to start in 2013. I will definitely do this:

On January 1, 2013: Take an empty jar anywhere in your room. Everytime when something good happens to you – it doesn’t matter if it is just a little thing, if it makes you happy – write on a little paper why you are happy, fold the paper, and take it into the jar. On the last day of 2013 empty your jar, and see how many little presents life give to you. Do it in each year.

I just want to share it. I think that this will help me appreciate so many things in life instead of me complaining about my misfortunes in life. I might as well blog about those this.