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Sighs, face-palm moments, and life in general

Well, that was such a long title. Sorry about that. I was just really busy with stuff going on with my life. I really don’t want to abandon this blog though. It has been a huge help for me to express myself and relieve my stress. Writing will always be one of my passions in life.

Anyway, I think I changed in a lot of ways compared to the one writing on this blog several months before. Now, I felt like something in me changed dramatically. When I got a position as a staff nurse in a hospital, I felt as though I need to force myself to be more responsible and more mature. I feel lots of things changing. Also, I realized how complicated and difficult life could be. Thank goodness to my family, friends, books, and the internet, I kept myself sane. Lol.

Also, I kept thinking to myself..kept questioning myself..if I can survive my job/my profession. Sometimes, I just want to hate myself for being so unsure of many things. What am I supposed to do? I know people at my age are supposed to figure out things and focus more on career building. I feel like sighing various times. Life is indeed not very simple. You have to consider lots of things.

Yesterday, I felt so exhausted..with what happened to me at work. I felt myself crumbling..shattered inside because oh well..I thought that I am as not as efficient as I am supposed to be. I just broke down and cried. After all, I need to take my stress out of myself or else I am going to burst. I miss the comfort of life but would it be a life worth living if I just settled for mediocre things? Dream at home about the extraordinary things I could do, or be at places I want to go? I could not do that. I have to work and move my ass for my dreams. I internally tell myself to fight, to be brave, and to be courageous. I hope I can conquer all the fears and insecurities that I have. This will be a long fight and a long journey.

I am grateful for the time I have off my work but my negative thoughts kept plaguing my mind..the kind of facepalm-worthy memories that keep on flashing..urghhh..It can be really so frustrating. I guess I’ll get over this soon enough..and when I say soon..I hope really soooon.

Considering all those things aside, I think I’ve been lucky to get a job in my line of profession. I am mostly thankful for everything that I have now.

I’ll be back sometime soon.

-Jenny

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Day 23: Round-Up

Hi everyone! I’m alive!! Lol, well you all know what’s my excuse for being absent for days. Anyway, two days to go before the end of the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge. This is what I will say: Never say never. I still feel that I can accomplish the remaining tasks of the challenge. It’s one of the times when I should let my stubbornness rule. The task for Day 23 is to publish a post which contains the links to the blogs with my fave posts. Here they are:

#1: When a man touches a womans blog, distaster strikes-From One Crazy Life to Another

When I read this task, this is one of the posts that immediately came to my mind. I am just one of those hopeless romantic girls who swoon over a lot of things. I think this is a post that everyone should read especially men out there!!! 😛 It’s really an fun thing to read. You’ll adore Amanda and her blog. It’s full of posts that will make you smile and be inspired.

#2: I’m grateful for stubbornness-Life’s Little Mercies

I must say that I am lucky to have stumbled in this blog. Life’s Little Mercies is a daily gratitude blog. If you ever need a motivation, this blog is a must to visit. Here, you’ll find that you can be inspired just appreciating what you have in life. I love the post titled, “I’m grateful for stubbornness”. Like what I have mentioned earlier, I am stubborn. Great thing, the advantages of stubbornness was discussed here.

#3: I’m here now-Two-Minute Tune-Up

Pam’s blog is one of the many inspirational blogs that I have been following. This particular post is one of the most moving in my opinion. It’s something that inspires me to just focus on what I have rather complain about what I don’t have. In her blog, you will find many short motivational posts that can help you get going when it just gets tough.

Moving on to the next tasks..

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Day 22: My First Time in Joining a Blog Event

This is one of the times that I am actually happy that I joined and kept up with the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge. Day 22 task is all about joining a blog event. My first thought is that this will be a difficcult assignment to accomplish.

So when I looked at the listings of the events, I came across this blog/event or challenge called the What If Weekly Writing Challenge. I think this will be a very fun challenge that I will love a lot. As a person who’s into the “what-if” thinking most of the time, I believe I will enjoy participating here. I will start participating next Monday. I am already excited.

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Day 20: New Page

For Day 20 of Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog challenge, we were asked to a new page to our blogs. What I did was to add a contact form for my new page. I put it there so that if ever there are people who might be interested in giving me some feedbacks or just want to be friends, well they have a way to communicate with me. That is…if there would be someone who would be interested in doing so.

So..moving on to the next tasks..

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Day 18: Publicize through Social Networks

Don’t get me wrong but the thing is I don’t really want to do the task for Day 18 of the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge. I know the challenge is all about exploring aspects of blogging. However, this one is not my thing to try. Actually, I don’t really want to publicize my blog that much. I am fine with whoever sees it andI prefer if the people who read it are anonymous. Just like for example, the people who see and read my posts will be the ones who are on wordpress or if they somehow..by chance..clicked on my blog through search engines. I don’t mind that at all. I think this is me speaking for myself to the world out there..not to the people I know already.

Why?

It’s because I have Facebook and Instagram to share my thoughts and deets about my life. I’ve got Twitter and Tumblr for my inner fangirl tendencies..so I don’t see the point of me ranting on my accounts in those social media platforms.

Sometimes, I think why am I even doing this blog challenge but then again I want to do something to challenge myself. It’s just that this isn’t my thing..So, there it goes for this task.

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Day 17: Confidence in Commenting

Yay! So, I am really catching up with the tasks. I am back with the Day 17 task for the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge. The assignment was to comment on six blogs regarding the Daily Prompt post about reputation. To be honest, I only commented on four blogs, if I can recall it correctly. So, through this challenge, I found posts in which I was totally moved.

I was expecting that I will be so lazy to leave comments but then it turned out to be the opposite. The posts I found were so wonderful and inspiring. With that, I eventually felt confident in leaving my comments. I was determined to tell those bloggers how I felt about what they wrote.

I think that this task is one of the best so far. I’m glad I accomplished it.

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Day 14: Struggling to keep up

Here’s the thing, I am having a hard time to keep up with the tasks. It’s just I have been busy with lots of things happening to me. I know it’s not an excuse though. Anyway, please forgive me for being four days behind for the challenge. Lol. I am so doing this at the pace of a turtle. For the Day 14 of the Zero to Hero: 30 days to a Better Blog, it stated that it’s the blogger’s choice what to do or publish. I think I will use this opportunity to share my thoughts about this blogging challenge.

At first, I was so excited with doing it. I guess that’s the way I can be sometimes. There are times in which I can be patient and attentive. Then, after that..I begin to lose interest…So, there goes my attempt in posting everyday. Well, I am thinking that at least I am trying to catch up.

Doing this challenge has really helped my blog traffic. I think I have increased viewers and followers ever since the first day of the challenge. In addition to that, there are actually people who commented on my posts. It’s like I got what I wished for when I started out the Zero to Hero challenge. So, thank you to all of them. It helped me to push myself to be actually better.

So, now that I am very delayed in the tasks..I am just really hoping that I will catch up. I don’t like to give up on this challenge though. It’s one of my goals for this year..to complete a blog challenge. To anyone out there who might be losing interest for awhile..I hope this post can also motivate you. Now, I am off to do the next tasks for the challenge. 🙂

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Days 13 & 15: More and more stuff to learn

Hi everyone! Again, I have been missing out on the daily tasks for the challenge. It’s been a crazy week for me. So, I’m glad that I was able to go back and write posts today. Anyhoo, for this post I will be covering the assignments for days 13 & 15 of the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge.

 

Day 13

This task is something which really made me have a hard time figuring about it. When I saw the task, I actually have no idea to what a blogroll is except that it has links other blogs. So, I tried and read the instructions. After a few minutes of little confusion (actually lots of confusion), I was able to come around and put up my widget for the blog roll. I included some of my favorite blogs there such as The Better Man Projects and Thought Catalog. It’s really helpful for me because I got to learn about blogrolls..though something tells me if I could have explored WordPress more seriously before..I would have made my own blogroll from the very beginning. 😛

Day 15

In this one, I think it’s one of the tasks that I don’t really want to do. In my opinion, I still like the way my blog looks now. So, maybe I will change some other time when I get to the point of being sick of looking at the same appearance of my blog…or maybe I am just being lazy. I know the task is supposed to be about learning but I think I have already tried changing the fonts and changing the headers/background before but the theme doesn’t let me to do so. 😛

 

That’s all for now…and I am still catching up with the other tasks! So, good luck to me!!!

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Day 9, 10, 11: Catching Up..Again

I’ve been away again..It’s been a busy week for me but I have no complaints. Anyway, like I promised to myself I will keep up with this blog challenge no matter how late I can be with my posts.

So, I missed Days 9, 10, and 11 of the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge. Okay, here we go:

Day 9

The task is about following more blogs/topics. The first topic that came to my mind is about The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. It’s one of my favorite books ever. It made me tear a LOT..no actually I think I was sobbing when I finished the book.

I searched the topic in the reader and I found some cool blogs that I think I will enjoy. I can’t wait for the weekend to read them. These are:

  • mybookishwonderland.wordpress.com
  • dailyreminderto.wordpress.com
  • pamboyd.wordpress.com
  • theinvisibilitycloak.wordpress.com
  • notwedordead.com

 

Day 10

I think this assignment for the challenge is something that I have to say “pass” to. I think I have put too much widgets on my blog already. I got the text widgets and the gravatar thingy. I’d like to explore sometime on the custom-made image widgets later on. But for now, I am contented with the widgets on my blog.

 

Day 11

My thoughts on today’s task includes the inner “me” saying..you’re so shy..you should not do that. I can be weird that much..like I have mentioned before that I am really trying my best to be brave and put out my blog in the blogosphere. I rarely make comments but when I do, the topic that they have written really spoke to me and I can say that well I can really relate to this. Okay, so for this..I’ll gather up my courage and comment on a topic that will really speak to me.

 

 

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Days 5 & 7: Catching Up

I know I have been gone lately. It’s just that I was not in the mood to blog. That’s what I always follow..I write just when I feel like doing so. I don’t want to do it as a task but rather something that I do for fun. Anyway, I know it’s useless to be rationalizing about my lack of post these past few days. So, moving on..these are my take on the tasks for Days 5  and 7 of the Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog Challenge:

Day 5 & 7

The task for day 5 is about choosing a theme for the blog. I thought of this like trying on clothes. When I shop for clothes it takes me hours before I find the right one that I’d like to buy. I make sure that it fits my personality and that I feel comfortable wearing it.

So, for my blog..my only criteria is if it looks girly and pleasing to my eyes. Yes, I said it right pleasing to MY eyes. Like the assignment mentioned, the theme should be reflective of me, comfortable, good to look at. What I did was try on the ones which are simple which describes me too. Some of these themes are Typo, Chunk, PinkTouch, and Mixfolio. They look good though because most of the content of my blog are texts. However, it just doesn’t suit me because these don’t have the panel for widgets and stuff. For now, I think I am fine with my current theme, which is Pachyderm.

Now, on with the Day 7 task.. It’s all about personalizing the header and background. On this one, I just changed the color palette and font used for the theme. I tried using the background thingies on the customization but it only looked overly-designed. So, I just went with the plain pink background (note: pink is my favorite color! oh..and I dunno what shade of pink or red is this..so whatever) and then the coquette font for the header and titles plus the arimo for the body text.

For the header, I will try and ask my lil bro to draw something cute for the blog. So that, it will look more personalized, more ME 🙂

 

Okay..here comes the total FAIL of the day. I made all those changes on the theme but I didn’t see that the Customization of the theme is allowed if I will purchase it. That just sucks. I was actually writing this post while I was editing and all. I guess I’d have to stay with the default appearance of the theme for now. I still like it though. Lol, I know that’s a major FAIL for a comeback post for this blogging challenge. Meh.

 

I will post Day 6 tomorrow..together with the next task. Congratulations to those who are able to keep up with the challenge. Gosh, I am so left behind..I even messed up on this one. Anyway, I will Keep Calm and Carry On.

 

Have a great day everyone. 🙂